Saturday, September 20, 2008

Non-Physical Pains

Over the years, these categories have arisen from the Raw Data. They are modern occurrences, inapplicable to even the very recent past.

1) Fate. Accidental tragedy that comes as a result of coincidence. Unforeseeable, unavoidable by personal intention. Usually is accompanied by feelings of guilt and hopelessness. An attempt to insert one’s will into the causes of tragedy retroactively. As a result, the victim attempts to blame himself or herself for problems that are well beyond his or her control. This leads to two distinct and intermingling depressions: guilt for causing the misfortune, and the underlying knowledge that she is lying to herself and in fact has no control over her own life. (Please excuse all pronouns). This is the second-worst form of tragedy.
2) Unforced Error. A true mistake in the classic sense. A tragedy caused by one’s own inability to prevent it despite knowledge of its likelihood. Initial lamentation and regret, but these feelings quickly subside. Immature “victims” (subjects) repress their own role in the misfortune: creating a fictional exterior cause, or elucidating a personal flaw beyond their own control. Mature subject almost immediately move past lamentation and gain a sense of comfort from the tragedy. “I have learned a very valuable lesson that will lead to a more successful and error-free life in the future.” Except this. Unless subject is young, it is very unlikely that he or she will be able to avoid the same misfortune in the future. The power of habit prevails over negative reinforcement. This is the most common form of tragedy and preferable to all other forms. Least emotional harm. A quick flash of depression leads to conversation with friends and the building of community. The possibility exist that this is the best form of tragedy because it is the most common and most practiced for. The possibility exists.
3) Intentional or semi-intentional harm. Willful creation of pain through normal social interaction. Emotional distress caused by the indifference or intention of another human being. Extremely high levels of emotional damage. Some victims recover. They successfully become convinced of the inadequacy of the person or persons causing them harm. This is rare. Abuse over time can lead to severe instability. Constant questioning of the self and self-worth. The entire psyche becomes contaminated. Inability to convince herself that she is being unreasonable. Extreme cases lead to victims telling themselves over and over. There is nothing wrong. There is nothing wrong. There is nothing wrong. While wholly possessed by a perfectly complete depression. Remember. All connections are unequal. The inferior member is forced to face the worst non-physical pain: the difference between needing and wanting. Horror sets in as day by day there a dawning realization that he needs something that he does not even want. Recovery is long, difficult, and unlikely. It is important to remember that everything is ok. There is nothing wrong but it does not seem to be true.

In the future all these tragedies will be obsolete.